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I wish I could succeed at something. February 13, 2009

Posted by skedaddle in Uncategorized.

I feel really upset right now.

I’m not liking this new trend of depressing Fridays.

I’m going to take a nap
and hopefully I won’t wake up until tomorrow morning.
Or better yet, I’ll wake up so far in the future that this won’t matter anymore.

But I won’t hope.
I have been disappointed too much lately.


Brutal Honesty For Those With Selective Hearing February 9, 2009

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I kind of dislike when people’s entire lives revolve around romantic relationships.
It’s like they can’t be alone, so when they feel like they are, they get overly dramatic.

I want to tell certain people to stop being depressed every time they discover some new crush isn’t going to like them back.
There are more important things. Life goes on. Especially since you seem to like somebody new every week.

Then when you finally do date somebody, it’s either “the happiest time of your life” or “the best person you’ve ever been with”.
Then after you both break up, it’s always the same. It’s always the other person’s fault; how they “spat you back into the world” or whatever. You’re always the innocent one who “ends up getting hurt”. I actually believed you the first couple times… Then I started to see the trend. You’re like a cd that keeps skipping at a really annoying part.

I also hate when you exaggerate everything.
I don’t care if that makes me a hypocrite.

I don’t know why it annoys me so much. Probably because you broadcast yourself to the world. It upsets me that I trusted you at some point in time. You screwed me over by your advertising (so much for keeping secrets) and then didn’t seem to understand the big deal.
But I didn’t get all upset and come complain to all your friends now, did I?
That’s called maturity. You should look it up. It might do you some good.

Oh and by the way
I don’t care if you wrote a song for me.
I still think you lack musical talent.

Some Thoughts February 5, 2009

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In sociology today my professor was talking about socialization. One aspect he focused on was fear and risks. He said he thought it was ironic that some people were afraid to fly but not afraid to get into a car, despite the fact that the chances of dying in a car accident are much, much higher than dying via airplane. He gave us some numbers to reflect on; there are 200 people in my class. He said that according to statistics, 3 of us would die in an automobile accident in the next two years, and 1 of us would commit suicide. He gave a couple other numbers like this, then showed us pictures of 5 of his previous students who had died in the past year.
As their smiling faces from the powerpoint glowed down onto us, the class got strangely silent. All of us were probably thinking the same thing- who would it be?

I can’t get this thought out of my head.
It’s not because I’m scared that I’m going to die.
I just know that everyone at this university has plans for their future
and no one can predict that their plans will be cut short.

Edit- Email my professor sent out a couple hours after I made this post:

“See, what’d I tell you? From today’s news:


Is evidence that one can only push human beings so far (and for only so long) away from social relationships and “normal” human interactions, and then they begin to break. Not good. Long, repeated, and stressful deployments in cultures very foreign to Americans are taking a growing toll. In Iraq, actual armed engagements are much lower than before, so it’s not as much about PTSD as it is about starved relationships.


Yes, my class is intense. To the max.